OK, In case you haven’t noticed, I’m writing this blog as I progress in my own spiritual journey and I post these nuggets of Wisdom as I pick them up along the way. I don’t claim to have the big picture just yet. I just put the puzzle pieces in place as I stumble across them. As I write this, my bank account is tanked in red and I have maxed out my Discover card which means that physically speaking I am broke, in debt and on top of that, unemployed. I have struggled with ADD all my life, which makes it more difficult for me to go out and “get a job” than the average Joe. I am also 60 years old now which cuts my marketability down considerably. I write this in order to provide a backdrop rather than to make excuses. I realize these limitations are only in my mind and that I view them from my Ego rather than my Higher Self.
Amidst all of my cries for help from the Universe, here is what I have been getting in response. First of all, I get the comforting message that “help is on the way”, along with the not so comforting, “have patience”. This of course speaks to the Ego which has very little effect when it comes to comfort. On a deeper, spiritual level, I am getting the clear message that I need to put the Spiritual first, above the Physical. This accompanies the ongoing theme of letting go of the past and confronting outdated belief systems which “no longer serve” me. One thing I have been shown clearly is that I should not derive my Security, Peace and Joy from external things and circumstances. I get the concept, but it is difficult to carry out.
Today, while in meditation, I was shown a few more truths. I was thinking about my place within Divinity and in connection to Source and how I could translate that into my bank account. I then began mulling over the concept of Free Will and a metaphor was presented to me. Imagine if you were to receive a letter that stated you were the descendant of royalty in a foreign nation. You are told that you are direct heir to the throne and that should you return , you would be afforded all the rights and privileges befitting your status. You might say that you have the “choice” whether to return or to stay where you are, but your status as royalty is not a matter of “choice”. The fact of your lineage is a Truth which is not debatable. Do you have the choice to remain in your current state and not take up your destiny? In a sense you do, but to take that course of action would be completely out of Ignorance and possibly a few other Negative Principles and certainly would not be in your best interest. The Wise decision would be to accept your heritage and take your rightful place in your kingdom. The solution is to Surrender to the destiny which already exists rather than give in to Fear, Doubt and Ignorance. Eliminate the latter and suddenly there is no choice.
In the above scenario, if I were to respond to the letter, my tanked bank account would suddenly become irrelevant along with my employment status and age. All of my worries, anxieties and fears are the result of having my priorities backwards. Instead of living from “Spirit first”, I give the physical and material top priority. A statement that arose from this meditation was that; “You are allowing the physical realm to dictate the course and quality of your Life”. In other words, I have been a victim of circumstances, people and lack, simply because I did not surrender to my own Spiritual status. I was also shown that “Lack” is a natural consequence of prioritizing the Physical. Creativity, Energy and Positive Flow come from the Spiritual to the Physical and putting the Ego in charge by making decisions from the natural mind cuts off the flow of Spirit. Sure, every once in a while I stumble upon an acorn (blind squirrel joke) but that can hardly be considered Abundance.
If you operate strictly from the Physical, there will always be lack… If you are led by Spirit first, the logistics are not your concern.The Sacred Fool
One of the problems I have faced as a result of my ADD/INFP/Spiritual Path #7 personality type is that of distinguishing between fantasy and reality. I can easily allow my imagination to take off and leave the ground while believing that I am on some spiritual quest or “higher” calling. I have to be consciously aware to keep things in perspective and not give myself to fantasy and imagination. As a result, I have overcompensated with anxiety and an obsession of checking and re-checking, which is, of course, negative energy. Sometimes, good ol’ “horse sense” is needed to cut through the fog of over-complicated spiritual focus and attention. I am sure that in the near future I will see things I should have done differently, but for now I take these lessons as they come and solve the puzzle one piece at a time.