Often times when we are going through the process of transformation, we wonder why the Universe does not hear our cries for help or respond to our prayers.
We may even imagine the Archangels munching popcorn and laughing as we struggle to get past our latest challenge. This is definitely not the case.
Typically what happens is that our Ego becomes quite uncomfortable and is wanting circumstances to return to a familiar state so that it can return to feeling in control and sufficiently stimulated.
During my transformation period, I took a job in a remote location and rented a bedroom apartment. I remember looking at the lights in houses as I passed by just to get a small sense of “normal” life and imagine that I had one. My Ego desperately wanted life to be normal again.
I knew however, that my work was not complete and that if I started putting the pieces of a normal life back in place, my Mind/Ego would take over again and I would be right back where I had been, living a false and unfulfilled life. I needed to finish my journey of transformation.
The mind focuses on the material; bank accounts, houses, cars, relationships, bills and jobs. As long as it can manage and accumulate, it can be content. Peace, contentment, happiness and worthiness are all based upon material management. This, however, is backwards.
Our true, authentic Self originates with Source. We are divine beings. Peace, Joy, Contentment and Happiness also originate with Source, not with material objects. When we look to the material for spiritual fulfillment, we will always be lacking and never satisfied. This is why Lack is at the root of most discontent.
If God were to give you that car, house or relationship, your Ego would be empowered and the changes you had worked so hard to achieve would be lost. All spiritual growth would stop and your mask would remain in place. Once the work is done and you live from your True Self, you can have whatever you want because it won’t change who you are.
The Sacred Fool 