Epiphanies take a while to digest. During the download process, the mind races to assimilate the new information, putting the new puzzle pieces in place, drawing new conclusions and connecting dots. Once the excitement is over, new gaps begin to appear.

Our last discussion revealed that the Will is complicit in aligning with the Ego and resisting alignment with Spirit. According to Alan Watts, the Ego is simply an illusion as is our separation from the Universe, or Source. In other words, The Ego is something we construct in order to deal with the complexities of being part of the vast, complicated Universe. It is the result of our attempt to make sense of the world around us and our role within it.

It was our Will, our “Core Essence”, our “Sentience” or “Self Awareness” that created our Ego as a sort of shield or avatar to protect us from a hostile environment. We are not a victim of our Ego, although through it we may have become entangled in Negative Energies difficult to escape. But it is up to us to re-discover ourselves and engage our powerful, limitless, sovereign, Divine Nature and live according to that nature.

The Revelation…

Resistance is the result of our Mind and Will being out of alignment with Truth and Love, not trusting our own Inner Being and giving in to some thought or belief that is totally false. It is the failure to surrender to our own purpose and personal fulfillment, the ultimate self-sabotage.

The Sacred Fool

So then if we are Divine Beings and part of the Infinite Source, it is in our nature to be Positive Energy. In other words, we are Love, Peace, Joy and Abundance by nature. To go against that nature is to go against ourselves which is resistance. The resistance then is not against something outside ourselves such as God or The Universe. We are in fact resisting ourselves. The only way that we can actually live the life of abundance, true love and total fulfillment is to embrace our real nature and step into the flow of the Universe which contains the divine blueprint, code or DNA specifically for us. Resistance is the result of our Mind and Will being out of alignment with Truth and Love, not trusting our own Inner Being and giving in to some thought or belief that is totally false. It is the failure to surrender to our own purpose and personal fulfillment, the ultimate self-sabotage.

In the end, it’s all about Us. We are the Universe. That doesn’t mean we are to be self-focused. On the contrary, it means that we are part of a larger picture and we have our part to play. But it isn’t something we have to “figure out” or to “get right”. We just need to remember who we are and from whence we came.

And then it happens. You finally realize. You don’t know why you didn’t see it sooner. It was there all the time.

It happened this morning during meditation. I was listening to The River meditation, aware of the fact that if “I” was grateful for my Higher Being, then “I” wasn’t actually my Higher Being. Then I got an image of my Will, my Inner Being (or Spirit) and my Ego standing together. My Will was standing with my Ego and then it occurred to me that it was actually being kept from my Inner Being. “What the hell?” I thought. There actually were things in place that were designed to keep my Will away from my Higher Self.

I mean this was no secret, right? I had written about this. I already knew this. But for some reason I now saw it in a different light. My Will was actually being denied access to my Higher Self! In other words, my Higher Self, or my Spirit, did not have complete freedom to operate my Volition while my Ego operated it without restriction. Now that I think about it, my Ego was acting as a filter; censoring, analyzing, approving or disapproving everything that transpired between my body and spirit and my actual Essence, or Will. While I may have known this on other levels, finally the full picture had emerged.

Suddenly, all of the admonitions by Tarot Readers to “let go”, “stop resisting”, “release” and “go with the flow” made sense. Somehow, deep in my inner core, I had been convinced that my own “Free Will” , or in essence, my core Self, should be entrusted to my Ego and my Ego guarded it fiercely. A series of nearly subconscious thoughts appeared which consisted of, “You should be over there”, “No, you don’t belong there”, “You can’t be there”, “That wouldn’t be right”, which had to do with the location of my Will in alignment with my Higher Self. It was as if I viewed my Spirit as an entity separate from myself and that my Will, or Volition was unworthy of direct access to my Higher Self. All of this took place in a matter of nano-seconds.

It was then that I realized I was FREE! I was finally free to be my Higher Self with unlimited access to Source. I was no longer relegated to the material world, or to my mind, or to my past or previous conditioning. Of course I had to know that all of that had taken place before this revelation could occur, but finally, everything had aligned. It had come one layer at a time and with each removal the vision became clearer.

A Darker Truth…

As I reflected on this revelation and began writing of the experience, a darker Truth began to emerge. I was reminded of an article I had written some time ago entitled “We Made a Decision“. In this article, I pointed out that according to Genesis, it was not the Ego that acted against God’s instructions not to eat from the Tree of Knowledge, rather the Will itself.

I thought about the underlying issues of lack, co-dependency and victim mentality. It is easy to blame the Ego as the culprit and allow my core Self to be innocent and free from responsibility. In fact, this is a pattern in which I have engaged my entire life. I have always wanted to be free from blame and to be guiltless. I have used co-dependency and victimization as excuses for lack and poverty. My Will is complicit with the Ego in not fully surrendering to my Higher Self out of fear of failure and humiliation.

I am not accusing or judging myself. I am simply observing that my Will has not jumped at the chance to align with my Higher Self and access the power that would follow such a decision. The Ego offered protection, albeit with great restriction and great cost. I traded my magnificent, authentic self for a weaker, yet safer version long ago. I didn’t know what I was doing; nevertheless, I gave the orders and my Ego faithfully carried them out. Then, somewhere along the way, I became lost.

I gave my Ego control and it faithfully complied although it was overcome by Negative Energy. I now reclaim my power as my Higher Self and Surrender to my True Nature. I Am That I Am.

Remember how we said that transformation was like peeling an onion? Slowly, one layer peels away and it seems as if nothing changes at all. Then a few more layers and an Epiphany! But wait! The revelation is short lived before you realize you still feel incomplete, unsatisfied. Your physical circumstances haven’t changed and it feels like the Universe is having fun at your expense.

Now your Ego is really getting pissed off and is digging through its tool box to see what it can use next to get back to some sense of “normal”. Lately you have been digging through your past to see what it is that is blocking you from moving forward and sifting through your beliefs to find which ones are holding you back. The problem, of course, is that this cannot continue.

We have been told that The Secret is The Law of Attraction. But some of us have been so enmeshed in poverty, lack, low self esteem and hyper-sensitivity that we cannot get free from our meddlesome Egos long enough to attract Positive Energy.

The Secret to The Secret is living from your Higher Self. It isn’t enough to put an end to negative thinking and try to maintain a positive outlook. The story must end. Until we completely free ourselves from the old narrative of who we thought we were with our limitations, failures, inadequacies and lack, we will continue getting more of the same. That means stepping away from the old and totally embracing the new. This is not about self improvement, self discipline or anything that has to do with dressing up the Ego.

This is about losing it. It’s about finding it. It’s about digging down to the Real You that was locked away so many years ago and stepping out. It’s about dropping the mask and speaking your Truth. It isn’t about simply getting an attitude when things don’t go your way. It’s not about shaming or guilting others, throwing tantrums or even taking your ball and going home. It’s about dropping the facade, expressing yourself, setting boundaries. It’s about Self Respect and Self Love. It’s about knowing who you are.

In order for us to live the Life we deserve, we must become the divine beings we truly are. We must operate in Honor, Integrity and Virtue. This is not possible from the Ego. It is only possible from our divine nature or our Higher Self. The reason we are held back is because we feel that we cannot break away from our Ego. This is who we believe we are. It is all we have known.

But this goes beyond cognitive dissonance. This cannot be fixed by simply replacing a few irrational beliefs. This is going to require metamorphosis. You cannot continue crawling on your belly. You will not be able to go on living in the pond. You are going to have to fly. Without assistance. Without a safety net. Just you.

Peace, Freedom, Joy and Love transcend everything! They are supreme principles of the Universe. They are priceless, invaluable! This is the origin of your Divine Nature. When you step into the flow of these principles you are simply returning to your true nature. Nothing, nothing, absolutely nothing that the Ego can produce compares to these principles and being outside of them is simply Lack.

You use to know this. In your innocence you reveled in this Truth. Somewhere along the way you forgot. You forgot who you were. You believed what you were told. You accepted guilt, shame and limitations. Forget self improvement! Get back to where you belong and everything will clear up.

Once in a while, on those rare occasions when the planets align, we get it right. We’ve all had those days when things just seem to go our way. Think about those times when you tried something that had a very small chance of working but with almost no thought, you succeeded. Usually it is something very inconsequential, like a basketball shot or kicking something into a container. Part of the reason it worked is because the stakes were low and you had no attachment to the outcome. But, there is another component involved which is of great significance, and which is almost completely overlooked and misunderstood.

Much has been said on the topic of Abundance in regards to Faith, Believing, Attachment, Resistance and Flow. While all of these are important and must be recognized in order to experience Abundance on a regular basis, one essential ingredient is often ignored. That ingredient is Intention. Intention, or Will, is that part of us that is uniquely Us. In other words, when you get down to that tiny spark that makes up the essence of who you are, it includes Intention. It is this spark that, when combined with the energy of the Universe, ignites the magic of creation.

The reason we know that our Will is separate is because we have the ability to override our Ego no matter how persistent or controlling it may be. Even addicts have the ability to overpower the obsession of the Ego for brief periods of time and can defeat their addiction after concerted effort. In fact, it appears that we have the ability to surrender our Will or Intention to either Negative or Positive Energy. We can give permission to our Ego or to our Spirit to direct our steps. If we Surrender our Will to Negative Energy, however, we will be taken in a direction which is opposed to our own best interests.

Of course we are talking about Free Will and the ability to choose a course of action. We are also talking about individual sovereignty and autonomy. We have discussed the difference between Obedience and Surrender and alluded to the issue of Intention. However, what we have not mentioned in previous articles is the connection between Intention and Surrender. At first glance, it may seem that these two concepts are opposed to one another. A deeper look will reveal that just the opposite is true.

For our purposes, Surrender means surrendering to one’s own Divine Nature. It is recognition of the fact that we each contain the divine “spark” of Life that connects us to the Universe. In other words, we are a representation of the Intention of the Universe. The act of surrendering to our nature is an Intention on our part as well. It is often said that we “always have a choice”, which is a reference to the nature of our Free Will. The problem with lumping everything together under the umbrella of choice is that it ignores Intention.

Negative Energy diminishes our ability to choose. In order to “choose” properly, one must have Freedom and Wisdom. Ignorance, Deception, Denial, Poverty, and Disease all restrict one’s ability to choose. Moreover, when it comes to Positive Energy, no better “choice” exists. Intention then, must be aligned with our own divine nature, which is aligned with Positive Energy, which is accomplished through Surrender.

In the above examples, when you kicked the basketball and it went into the hoop, an alignment occurred to which you were mostly unaware. First of all, you envisioned your intended outcome. At some point you thought; “wouldn’t it be cool of this ball went into the hoop?” Secondly, you were unattached to the outcome. In other words, your Ego wasn’t trying to control the situation and make it happen, which is why subsequent attempts never worked. Finally, your Intention connected with a higher vibration and energy which produced the desired results. In other words, you stepped into the Positive flow of the Universe without even knowing it.

The question then becomes how do we make this happen on a regular basis. The first order of business is knowing who we are. Until we become fully convinced that we are divine beings, events like these will only be accidental. Secondly, we must defeat the saboteur: The Ego. Our Ego is immersed in Negative Energy and false beliefs. It is completely tied to the physical realm and a material mindset. It is influenced by society, culture, religion and behavioral conditioning. Overcoming this will take a considerable amount of time so don’t think that you can muster up your “faith” and start knocking down mountains tomorrow. You have to do the work.

You have to dig deep into your inner self and confront negative beliefs, self-doubt, trauma and unforgiveness. You will need to meditate and discover your spiritual identity in order to listen to your Intuition rather than your Ego. You will need to let go of the idea of doing what you are “supposed” to do, or what some superior entity wants you to do. Life is about thriving and being You. You cannot do this if you think that You are your Ego and you are bound by the circumstances and people around you. You must first become enlightened to the fact that you originate from a higher place and that you have a higher purpose. Once you do that, then you simply combine your Intention with all of the resources of the Universe… Then, nothing can stop you!

As of this writing, the entire world is dealing with the fear and confusion caused by the Covid 19 (Carona) virus. Many theories, accusations and apocalyptic postulations have been put forward as to the origins and purpose of this virus. One common observation which is emerging from the chaos is that our collective values and priorities as human beings have become misplaced. One example is Italy, which is experiencing a renewal of wildlife and natural restoration due to the reduction of traffic and pollution.

I’ve never been a tree-hugger, nor anything close to an “environmentalist” even though I grew up in a very rural area. I have come to realize, however, that nature is very much connected to God and that a spiritual lifestyle must include a profound reverence for nature and simplicity. In fact, this is the very essence of Positive Energy. It is valuable, priceless, majestic. Only a fool does not see the importance of respecting and nurturing the earth around us as is well demonstrated in George Carlin’s monologue.

Positive Energy does not argue with, coerce or manipulate you. If you don’t recognize its value it simply doesn’t let you in. Negative Energy, on the other hand, will blind you, put a leash around your neck and drag you around. Regardless as to whether or not climate change is due to human intervention, we know how to be responsible for our planet. To not be responsible is simply disrespect. Yet, demanding change by force is not the answer. Positive change must come through Love and Divine intervention. Sometimes, Love has to be tough. Showing the consequences of one’s actions by placing them in time out is one way of showing Love. Right now, all of us are in time out.

We used to have Public Service Announcements which reflected our values and respect for community and responsibility. I can remember the commercial below as well as

the Smokey Bear commercials and “Do You Know Where Your Children Are?” spots. At some point it seems that society became more addicted to greed and convenience and our collective Egos drifted from these values.

We need to explore new types of energy. We need to look more into Tesla’s discoveries. We also need to confront those in power who are corrupt and deceptive with the Truth and possible legal action. We need to care more for our neighbors. We need to sing more from our balconies. Something needs to change and it appears we have been sent a clear message that change is on the horizon, whether we like it or not.